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Sunday, September 21, 2014

To my Instagram followers: Sorry I don't know how to take good food pics or selfies. Somebody please teach me hahaha.

Friday, September 19, 2014

....

People don't talk about certain things (like salary and work) but....

After tax and 401k deductions, I get paid barely above minimum wage.

Sigh.

Saturday, September 13, 2014

why I stopped blogging

When I was in high school, I was very passionate about blogging but nowadays I don't even pick up the camera anymore. (Maybe it is because culture is changing and nobody accepts carrying around big, fat SLR's anymore since you can just use your 8 megapixel phone camera? I don't know.) I used to look up to several bloggers (girls from Singapore to be precise) and I'd always say my wish is to be as popular as them. I wanted to have nice photos of my outfits, flawless selfies, interesting posts about my life, advertorials, etc. And maybe even earn money through blogging. Just like them. But most of all, I wanted to have younger girls look up to me just as I looked up to them.

Fast forward a few years and I am out of high school and even almost out of college. I've changed a lot. I guess you could say I was more hopeful in high school, even though I hated school (what's new?), I was really cliquey and didn't like anyone who wasn't my good friend.

I gave up on blogging because let's face it--how can I, such an average looking girl with such a basic life, expect to be liked and praised by others when I am so... average? The fact that my life consists of just school and work makes me such a dull person. It's pretty bad when my idea of hanging out is studying with classmates and I think going out to eat is a huge waste of time and money. Even when I go on vacation or day trips, I am not particularly happy about them either. It's as if I don't care about my own happiness anymore. My happiness is so dependent on a specific list of things and if I don't achieve them, I can't be happy.

So anyway, the reason why my blog has declined so much and so many posts were deleted is because I am tired of blogging about the trivial things that happen in my life because in the end, no one cares. There are so many more interesting bloggers out there like they were born to be bloggers I swear. But sadly, that's not the life I was meant to live even though before it was all I ever wanted to be. ):


p/s: This blog is the reason why I found so many amazing girls out there and I am forever grateful. To name a few: Patricia (Philippines), Adwyna (Singapore), Rachael (Singapore), Claire (Singapore) and Tabitha Brooke (USA & meeting up with her by the end of this year!^__^).

p/p/s: Who knows, maybe I'll pick it up again and resume blogging regularly. And maybe my boyfriend can become a better photographer. Just kidding. (: Not. Haha!

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Decoden

Decoden (decoration dian hua)

My first case! (Nexus 4) This one is for myself but I'm not sure when I would use it because it seems a bit weird to be carrying it around at work and even in uni...


My second case, for my sister. (Nexus 5)
Chocolate themed.

Monday, September 1, 2014

You will never be happy in a relationship if you aren't happy with yourself.

Story of my life.

I'm not made to be in a relationship. I swear, I think I am one of those people that are meant to be alone forever. I don't think I have ever been truly happy even though I am #1 at fake smiling. Fake it til you make it right? I am never at ease and I am always watching my back because I'm paranoid. Maybe because of all the wrong things I've done in life I don't know. I get tired of myself really easily. I have deleted so many blog posts and Instagram posts because I don't like what I look like or who I am. I have restarted my Twitter feed twice and I recently cleared my Facebook. Reason being I am not happy with myself. I recently blogged about how I would be happy if only I had this and that (entire list). The list consists strictly of superficial factors and some people might think it is a joke but it it actually isn't no matter how dumb it sounds. There are many times where I would just break down because all these thoughts clog up my mind and it is all that I can think about. I can say a million compliments about others but I can't say a single for myself. This is just who I am and if you can't deal with it I completely understand because I can't deal with myself either.

Saturday, August 30, 2014

girl crush


I have never crushed on a girl so hard before hahaha. But seriously, this Thai girl is flawless (my boyfriend agrees) and I am so jealous of her looks and everything. Some people are just blessed with being perfect and sometimes that makes me so depressed because I am far from having the perfect body, smile, height, etc. Sigh.

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Since as long as I can remember, I've wanted a boyfriend or at least a best friend who was as into photography/art as I am. Someone who could take my ootd pictures for my blog and Instagram. Every blogger I follow is a girl who has a boyfriend who takes all of their photos and I've always envied that. But I totally gave up on that by now. My boyfriend knows that I want that but I mean you can't force someone to be someone they are not and do things that they really weren't meant to do right? So yeah sorry for this random post. This is just a wish that never came true but at least now I can openly talk about it so it stops bothering me.